Vienna calling

As my trip is slowly coming to an end and I'm getting ready to pack up and get back home, I keep thinking about my hometown -Vienna. It's funny, whenever I mention from where I from I hear things like "oohhh, so pretty", " a wonderful city", "it must be great to live there", "all the culture - it's amazing" - (well that is of course after I receive some wondering glances and can see people thinking in their mind - "did she just say Vienna, like Vienna in Austria - or is there some place in Africa called Vienna ..."). And then I always feel kind of the duty to reply "yes, it's a great city to live there, you should go there" - while I keep wondering "yes, but not for all MY life". Emphasis on the MY here, as with everything posted up here please bear in mind that my views are subjective, no intention to be in any way objective. I know that for many out there it is a great city to live for all their lives, but I'm not one of them anymore and somehow I think I never was.

I am soooo ready to get out of there, I aim to leave, to get settled somewhere else. As mentioned in one of my previous post - this is not about the people I know there, they are great and I'll miss them - it's more about the future potential I see for me and this place. I just don't see this relationship going anywhere right now. It is a nice city and all and I guess a good place to grow up in and to get settled once you are ready for this - but somewhere in between you or rather I just have to get out and gain some distance. It's just not exciting enough anymore, the city is discovered and I'm stuck in a routine there - the same places, the same people (this excludes friends and so, I mean in general you meet the same or similar people), not enough to get the rush I usually get in other new places.

Yes, we shared the laughter, we shared the tears, we had good times, we had bad times but let's face the truth: the fun, the romance, the excitement - it's gone; or to say it in Gordon Lightfoot's words: "I don't know where we went wrong but the feeling is gone and I just can't get it back."
As mentioned in an earlier post there is a lot of history and a tear will be shed if I finally move away but I am confident that the places I'll go will be worth it. I currently have some possible options lined up but till anything is confirmed, I won't set my head on anything and I don't know yet when I'll get to leave and for how long.

Maybe it's not a breakup but rather a break - and after a year or two I'll come back crawling begging you to take me back - or I may not. Well I guess it's not you, it's me ... well this is a lie, it is so you and yes there are others.

However, who knows, one day I am ready to get finally settled here and I will be longing to spend the rest of my life in my hometown - and till then I guess it's like Billy Joel said in his aptly named song Vienna:

"You've got your passion, you've got your pride
but don't you know that only fools are satisfied?
Dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?"

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